I'm Trying To Be Consistent

I just moved into the new apartment. I'm all moved out of the old one...now all I really have to do here is get a few more things out of my car, everything else is going home. I love my new room; I moved the furniture around because it was a tad ridiculous and crunched...I have turned crunched into cozy. I've decided to slowly go back to cooking my own meals as opposed to eating campus food all the time. My first meal shall be fried turkey wings, macaroni & cheese, and peanut butter brownies for dessert. It will be great... my only problem is that I cook in large portions...so I may find someone to cook for or just eat hella left overs...who knows. I've been up since 6:30 so I'm going to take a nap(yes it's 7:55pm). Later folks

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So I had an interesting dream. Lion free this time. There was a Greek flash, but nothing significant..but picture a bright, sunny, cliche day for a picnic. A friend and I are at one of my friend from home's houses...the main family house actually...Picture a large four-story brick home on an 126acre estate...poppy flowers and whatnot...Yeah...so he was having a Sunday brunch gathering...

**sidenote, for some reason we are all four years older than what we are now.

Anywho, in order to get to the back area, there's a button you press behind a picture, above the fireplace and then giant stained glass windows open...not a door[since you don't know where he lives it's totally fine I give this information away]...we're all sundressed/kentucky derby hatted up enjoying the meal and music when

ALL OF A SUDDEN

Denzel Washington approaches me. *side eye* Yeah, weird right? Well, I met him when I was really little so I was talking to him like it was nothing. He didn't remember me at first, but we caught up on life...he asked me a lot about mine and well...it was good conversation. However, the way he kept staring into my eyes...it was exactly how someone I know did and absolutely irresistible.

Damn It!

Anywho, we're pretty much engulfed in each other's attention and before you know it, we're getting a tad too close. It was so romantic, it actually flashed sequence like a movie. Anywho, we come back outside to the brunch and are immediately met with a flock of haterade consumers side eyes...If you didn't know, he is married with four kids...

but in another dream I actually Angelina Jolie'd that nonsense and he left her, married me...and I bore him quadruplets. I might actually share that in greater detail if I can't think of something to blog about if I can remember it.

Yeah, well... immediately cower and look at him with my sad "you know this is wrong" look and he returns the look with a "You don't care what others think...you never have, what's wrong" heartbroken stare...I felt like an asshole on both sides of the fence. It's a weekend event so I lay low the rest of the day...occasionally sharing a look of regret with D...haha I call him D.

The next day...Well my friends [host party and other friend] and I are back in the parlor hanging out, joking and talking about it and they both agree with him...since when did I care about moral? Clearly we were meant to be together and I needed to find him and stop being foolish. We have to go back outside including button pressing and I rush out there...the crowd is larger than yesterday and I'm searching...but he's gone...

it was depressing...

my alarm vibrated and I was so pissed I couldn't find him...so I wrote this.

I do believe Denzel was a metaphor for someone else....

damn you REM cycle.